Keep the faith in what, though? Eventually, one gets worn down by the incessant rumour and counter-rumour, bold statements by Ron on the club's website followed by appearance after appearance in the Bankruptcy Court.
If this club were being run successfully at the very top we wouldn't have:
- players alleging that they haven't been paid;
- a side whose backbone is reliant on loanees from Colchester (of all places);
- a side full of loanees in any event - 5 out of a first team squad of 18 (*) represents almost 30% of the squad;
- an ongoing fight with HMRC (e.g. when was the last time you saw Tesco or John Lewis having three successive adjournments in the space of 4 months in the Bankruptcy Court?);
- the sale of our best players and their replacement with kids;
- executive directors who consider it not only their place, but appropriate behaviour, to publish articles on the website and in the press which are deeply critical of ex-players - as if somehow that will exonerate them from the off the field issues (or indeed from the decision to purchase said player in the first place);
- ridiculous schemes to try and acquire next season's ticket revenue now (which leaves you wondering how it is proposed that next season's expenditure will be funded?);
- only 3 wins in our last 15 league fixtures (with a further 3 draws and 9 defeats - relegation form if ever you saw it);
- 12 points out of the last 45 points on offer - only 0.8 points per game (again, cast iron relegation form); and
- no wins in 2010 - we're P6 W0 D3 L3 this year.
...and, despite all the above, people are sticking with Tilly and Brush, because we're not stupid - we know it's not their fault. Tilly needs at least a sow's ear if he's to try to turn it into a silk purse. Right now, he's working with sow's faeces - and even that has been loaned to him.
In pursuit of a dream which appears little nearer today than it did three years ago (we have some pretty drawings and planning permission - but those mean
nothing unless you have the means to build anything), our club's hierarchy has spent every last penny this club has, and many pennies that the club doesn't have, it would seem. No doubt the Chairman will have a message up on the site at some point in typical belligerent fashion, telling us how we're all wrong and how everything's fine and there's nothing to worry about. But, like the little boy who cried "Wolf", there's only so often you can say the same thing before people eventually stop listening, stop believing.
If everything was fine at the club, the side wouldn't look this bad and things wouldn't feel this bad. Tilly & Brush have shown that when they're given the right funds to build a squad of their choosing, they're a success. That the team is so palpably unsuccessful right now can only be because they're being denied the funds they need.
So, as I said before, what exactly am I supposed to be keeping the faith in right now - given the wrecking ball that appears to have been taken to the club's squad, its finances and its self-belief?
Yours despondently,
Matt
(* I've said the first team squad is 18 because Joyce has all but left, and O'Keefe and Herd are essentially little more than youth teamers; neither has been given a proper run-out in the first team, that is for sure.)